nothing much
Thursday, April 28, 2005
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theres a shit load of work to do today and guess what i havent even started yet. Need to revise for econs and maths test tml. still need to do some summary shit for history. Best of all tml got some extra lecture for history at 3 pm when school ends around 1 pm. Next week got co-op learning for hist again. Tests come every week now. Never ending flow of madness.
Shit begons more shit. haha murphys law when one thing goes wrong, everything goes wrong.
EMINEM - MOCKING BIRD
Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on m
eAll the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reasonI guess it was never meant to beBut it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny isBut no more worries, rest your head and go to sleepMaybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dreamNow hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, I told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab i
tI'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still hereI like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
CHorus
And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)
8:58:00 PM
Lyrics part 2
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Sianz another day has whizzed by just like that. Woke up damn late today, couldnt sleep well at nite cos of stupid moquitoes that bit me in the middle of the nite. WOke up at 340 am to kill those sucking machines and apply ointment. Only woke up at 720 am in the morning, RUSHED LIKE mad to get ready for school. Lucky my mum sent me otherwise sure late. Had history test for source based, ok lar not going to get spectacular marks but hopefully can pass.
Most of the day just whizzed by like that lor, its a routine lor. Live day by day. hour by hour.
Got two test coming on friday, econs and maths. Cant afford not to do well in both, need to get some decent marks at least. Angel mortal game.....sianz i think i shouldnt have bothered playing it. i await to c who is my angel.
this friday will be a short day cos of annual awards presentation ceremony, about 2 and half hours of lessons formally. yupx
Blink 182- First date ( another meaningful song, dedicated to couples out there me not included XD)
In the car I just can't wait
to pick you up on our very first date
Is it cool if I hold your hand?
Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?
Do you like my stupid hair?
Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?
I'm too scared of what you think
You make me nervous so I really can't eat
Let's go, don't wait, this night's almost over
Honest, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
When you smile, I melt inside
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that you're capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss
A target that i'm probably gonna miss
Let's go,don't wait, this night's almost over
Honest, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
8:58:00 PM
Lyrics
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Oh my gawd
so meaningful
so mani songs are about love and teen angst
and no doubt that teens luv it cos it can relate to them
the joys of being one, the sorrow, the agony are all reflected in todays songs
Haha this seems to be true for most categories of music,
haha including techno, pop, punk rock,
old school rock, rap
NO doubt- Running
Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side
Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love
[Chorus:]Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated
Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up
[Repeat chorus twice]
(The future)
[Repeat chorus]
9:16:00 PM
Lost in time and space
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Rollercoaster ride it has been. Life is indeed one , i had said this before and i will say it again, life is never a stright line, it curves and has its ups and downs. The ideal situation would be a stright line. but this seems just a far off dream now.
Now theres just a week left before MAy arrives, another month , another month less to the A levels. I aint fretting yet, but i problably will in june when i need to clear one and half years of work just for the mid year exams which are so strategicly placed just after the june hols. REAd this >> June is just a mugging and catching up season, Kiss the holidays goodbye.
My emotions have been spinning out of control almost or literally lost it on sat nite, sianz, apologise to joel man, i was whining throughout the nite. BUt i have thought about the situation and i guess u are rite, i guess some pple just wont change. Just heck them and live my own life but my own rules.
Hypocrisy and deceit seem to be the rules of the jungle. how true is this, i wont noe till i start working, But what i can tell u that my class resembles the matrix with an intricate network drawn out so elaborately that one person cant really keep anithing a secret . Politics? Hell yeah definitely exists , hm maybe i was oblivious to it in sec school cos when there all guys u tend to settle things using ur fists or actions and not words which is the case now well at least it think. U cant be 100% sure of everything. Can u?
Hm i guess it does exist not only in the workplace, schools , who noes where else. now do u wonder why politicians aka world leaders often have balding hairs and wrinkles, thats cos they got the navigate this jungle out there where small countries are easily intimidated or forced into submission by world powers.
Oh on a more personal note, i kinda like NYDC's food , baked rice hawaian style with lemon sherbert on a friday nite with friends after a gruelling MOck gp exam in which the lt resembled a freezer is indeed nice. Oh i guess one advantage of wearing pants, is that ur legs dont feel so cold. I wonder about the girls with their sexy and slender legs exposed? Care to enlighten me. Of cos the girls should keep their skirts as short as decently possible, that way they can show off and at the same time keep the guys satisfied. See it benefits both parties? COOL isnt it.
K thats all i can think of for now. FOr some reason my comp is lagging like shit when i type this. Argh and my keyboard, some of the letters have eroded due to my hand sweating >>> argh sweaty palms.... dun like it. Peace out guys and dude.
11:05:00 PM
Midweek
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
everytime i type it usually starts the same .
Nothing much,
sat went to play lan with classmates at beautyworld. Not too bad but still kanna owned, need to kil more creeps. At home was doing gp essay, wrote it out first then typed it out.
Sunday nothing much
Monday just another slack day as usual.
Tuesday was killer history test, mugging as usual is boring and sian.
Today had maths retest
Not good lar, most likely will fail or borderline pass again. Good thing today was went to eat LJS With cca peeps at far east after school, the meals there are good value for money.
Tml, dunno what happens.
Friday got gp mock, pass with a completed aq and summary will be good enough for me.
Ai too sianz to blog. another time then
11:19:00 PM
No longer 17
Saturday, April 16, 2005
as i type this i am officially 18 years old havent left behind being 17 just 34 mins ago.
Well i dont feel anithing now
Just kind of glad that i got to spend some time with friends over the past week and friday of cos.
This week has zoomed by even faster than i thought.
Tuesday went to have lunch with remy at holland village. sorry man, was late as i had to wait to c whether there was gp remedial on that day.
Wed got training as usual, saw a few new j1's from my junior class 1t07. Haha nostalgia huh, things in j1 seem rosy for them so far.
Napha on monday wasnt very good. Improved in shuttle run and pullups, need to work on standing broad jump and improve my 2.4 timing. Overall bronze only, need to get silver by july, sianz napha is a drag to me but necessary.......
Today after training went to meet joel for dinner and movie. Went to nydc at heeren, wanted to go eat marche but too crowded. ate hawaian pasta cos there was no rice available and a drink called e=mc2>>>> claims to make u smarter wahaha tasted funni. Pasta was nice, sitting at the roadside can see all the human and car traffic past by. Saw lingzhi with her shooting friends, andrew who is currently a councillor in sajc.
After that went to wacth the movie Creeps>>> ai it isnt good. Not much development of the storyline , instead it tries to shock u with the gore and violence, definitely a bloody film that has some chilling moments. Not for those under 16, though i felt it could have gotten a higher rating .
Should have cacthed the movie sahara instead
Thats all for now.
Thanx to those who wished me happi bdae, and those who sent me msgs .....nathead ;)
12:34:00 AM
LYRics
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
My current favourite song Catergory: techno/eurodance
CAscada
Everytime we touch
I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me
still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling. And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly. Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last. Need you by my side. Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static. And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.Can't you hear my heart beat so.I can't let you go.Want you in my lifeYour arms are my castle, you heart is my sky
. They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we been trough them all.
You make me rise when I fall
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last
. Need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so
.I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling. And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly. Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last. Need you by my side. Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static. And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.Can't you hear my heart beat so.I can't let you go.Want you in my life.
ULtra meaningful lyrics if u ask me, this probably describes the feelings that exists between those who are attached aka pple with gfs and bfs. This song is dedicated to all of ya. TReasure each other , dont take advantage of one side willing to give in to your demands.
Of cos it doesnt apply to me yet . I
Why?
Cos i'm still single >>>> DUH >>>> -_________-""
11:48:00 PM
EURo dance mania
Hm its just the normal routine of school i guess, oh yeah the angel/mortal game today we picked who was to be our angel and who will be your mortal................... I am not going to reveal who is my mortal.............
Argh i dunwanna talk about this.
Sianz, didnt do well for napha, got bronze only. Need to improve standing broad jump and my 2.4 km, hm shuttle run and pullups got some improvement. Maths test flunked like fuck again, 5.5 out of 20, sianz carlessness cost me 3.5 marks otherwise can just scrap through. Ah been tired as usual a lot of times, taking 3 hour naps is the norm these days.
Tried doing some maths qns, cant do maths without cracking ur brains.
As usual me listening to techno music on wkrz 91.3 especially at this time , all the nice and groovy songs being played. AH shake ur head to the beat !!!!
Groove coverage........their songs are great, got rythm and meaning........check out their songs its worth it.
Groove coverage- GOd is a girl
Remembering me, discover and see,
All over the world, she's known as a girl,
To those who are free, their minds shall be keep,
Forgotten as the past, 'cause history will last.
God is a girl, wherever you are,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, whatever you say,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, however you live,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, she's only a girl,
Do you believe it, can you receive it?
She wants to shine, forever in time,
She is so driven, she's always mine,
Clearly and free, she wants you to be,
A part of the future, a girl like me,
There is a sky, eluminating us,
Someone is out there, that we truly trust,
There is a rainbow, for you and me,
A beautiful sunrise, eternally.
God is a girl, wherever you are,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, whatever you say,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, however you live,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, she's only a girl,
Do you believe it, can you receive it
11:34:00 PM
April....
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Okiez heres an update ...haha have been rather lazy to blog for the past week. Man just like this, another week has passed. Haha i say this probably every weekend cos i like the weekends except sundays cos theres tuiton and on monday i cannot wake up late.
ANiwaes the past week sure has been hectic, got tests for every subject througout the week, hist test on tuesday......... hm okiez in my opinion, i could have done better if i managed my time better, still missed out some key points. Wed had cca supposedly , but once me and my cca mates when to the macs near the training spot, it started pouring non-stop. So we just stoned there and ate, slacked, tried to do some work. Wah take me a long time to do maths,sianz always like that lor. Thursday nothing much, erm cant quite remember, oh yar pe got changed to friday, now there are 2 mass pe a week. Which is not good if u dun really like pe, but great if u are fitness junkie.
Anywayz got a new timetabe again, for next couple of weeks. not too bad end rather early, friday end at 1230 BUTTTTTTTTTTt got cca later sianz. IF not, can go and SLACK AND RELAC AR. Latest day is on monday with school ending around 230pm.
Today didnt do much. just did some history, and went through some econs. Watched new anime SAYUIKI RELOAD>>> not bad man, catch it if u have the chance. At nite went to town to meet my old pal once again, he was rather late about one and half hours cos he was at woodlands and had to rush to town. SO i just passed time at borders reading mags about>>>> CARS of cos. haha i just wanna get my hands on one of those boy racers like the nissan silivia, subaru wrx sti, lancer evo, Nissan SKYLine GTR, honda civic . Too bad modifying cars in sg is illegal, in my opinon, cars with souped up bodykits, neons, gt wings, huge rims, lowered suspesions, engined modded are cool . Hahaha the only place where u can do this legally is on the ps2 by playing Need FOr speed underground 2.
Watched the movie the pacifier, not bad. Quite funny, hm but storyline not as good as hitch, Vin diesel sure has muscles, haha chiseled body. Oh yar, met some of my old classmates at far east, ronald , sherman and seah. Haha they havent changed much i guess, but then again who wants to dwell in unhappiness and show it.
Yupx thats all folks for now. Off to snooze
1:02:00 AM
April
Saturday, April 02, 2005
How often have u heard the phrase be true to yourself
Does it still have animeaning in this world.
People are now obssessed with being what they want others to see as
Popular, charismatic, intellectual etc
Are u cheating yourself if u pretend to be someone u are not
Well i shant blabber too much, teen angst is amazingly easy to gain but incredibly hard to suppress. No kidding about it
2:10:00 PM
